daydreames

R.I.P skanky matt

Fri, 05 Oct 2007 06:00:42 GMT

I'm not ready to write much yet.

the tears have streamed, the memories have lead to smiles, the emptiness in that certain place will be there always, the black little hole than can't and won't be filled.

R.I.P Mattchoooo South

1986-2007

3.25 will never be the same, promise.

floating through my atmosphere...

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 13:32:30 GMT

so i haven't been on here in a while. caution: useless crapping on.

Its kinda weird just now... im sitting at home on a saturday night and for the first time in over 9 months i haven't felt the need to go out. its actually kinda rad. And i didn't even go out last nite either.

last night i had pizza and beer with my dad and watched some really bad aussie movie, that attempted to up the mark on the terrible aussie movies genre, but just managed to bring it way back down again. rock bottom.

and tonight dad made me vietnamese tofu coleslaw and roti bread and it was totally rad. then we ate bullets and watched yet another bad movie. poor dad and his inability to choose anything that has substance.

Yeah, dad was staying in cos he had another short lived romance with someone he met at an RSVP function. Please god let me find a nice boy before im 50 and RSVP is my last hope at having sex before i die.

So ive been taking a lot of long walks at the moment, and reading, and learning stuff on my geetar. Ive actually found myself turning down beer opportunities to chill at home... yup i think im a freakerzoid.

boys. theres two. can i just have both?

sweet.

HAPPY AMES

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 02:20:38 GMT

DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE

Im so happy today
yup...REALLY happy

78 sleeps till one of my many dreams comes true

:) :) :)

AMAZING

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 15:57:25 GMT

Its 1.53am. I have so much stuff floating around in my head that i could probably reflect on right now, but all i can do is say...

THE NEW THURSDAY IS FUCKING AMAZING.

Running from the rain and the lovesong write are ones i like ALOT

I want to make out with my ipod right now
or a member of thursday

It will be ok

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 02:03:09 GMT

Stop calling me
Stop telling me my ways led to this
Stop leaving me with the darkness of guilt
Stop telling me that this world isn't worth living

Because it is

Just let me be.

A smile

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 10:37:26 GMT

As i sit on the brightly lit tram I stare at the dishevelled man opposite
He has the scent of sadness

My day was filled with misfortunes...
misfortunes in my world.

I left my keys behind somewhere at uni
My battery went dead on my phone when i really needed it
I tripped on an escalator running for the train
I missed the bus by approx 30 seconds
My i-pod battery went flat leaving me without my favourite thing
It took me two gruelling hours to get home
I'll have to wait at home on the dark porch for someone i can't even contact
I have a long night of potentially unproductive study ahead of me to ensure i meet tomorrow's deadline

All these things matter to me in my world today
But what significance do they have to the man in front of me?
He constantly travels on the brightly lit tram to fill up the countless hours he spends alone
Alone in a world that is full of judgement and dissapointment

In my world my day seems destroyed
but I come to realise i can be thankful that my spirit isn't broken by a life full of bad days

I smile at him, and i mean it
A small jesture but you can see in his desperate eyes that acknowledgement means that today brought a small fortune
a smile.

distraction...

Tue, 11 Apr 2006 23:38:28 GMT

The creases that form upon my forehead won't release
My stomach clenches and its emptiness feels heavy
Sleep is not as easy to drift as thoughts cloud my head

But I'm happy. And the secret smiles continue

The lyrics that won't leave my head...

So lets face it, this was never what you wanted
But I know that its fun to pretend
Our blank stares and empty threats
Are all I have…
They’re all I have…

So drown me.. if you can
Or we could just have conversation
and I fall, I fall, I faulter.
I found you before I drift away

Now you still speak of day old hate
Though your whole world has gone up into flames
And isn’t it great to find that you’re really worth nothing
And how safe it is to feel safe

So drown me and if you can
Or we could just have conversation
And I fall, I fall, I faulter.
But I found you before I drift away

The things we do just to stay alive

The things we do just to keep ourselves alive